CHAOS

i've been sitting up here in front of the computer for hours now without doing anything and just thinking of what me and my "we're just friends" friend talked about.

honestly, i like him because he's one cool person. he loves music and so i am. not everyone can appreciate my kind of music but he does. for a month that we've been friends, he really inspired me to move on (from my stupid ex) and just do the music. sounds a bit corny but yeah.

i understand why people come and go into our lives. many of them had done that with me as i do the same, especially with my cyber friends. But if there's one person i don't wanna go just like that, it's him. i don't even love him. i just like him so much. well actually, i don't know how i feel about him.

if he's not that special to me, why would i spend my precious time talking to him over the phone for hours and chatting with him all night long? listening to his choppy skype calls while singing, laughing with his jokes, eating durian early morning, eating bulalo, and stuffs.

i don't understand. i really don't. ...